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[4.27.06 (Thursday) 8:59pm] |
Everytime I close my eyes, I miss Hayden. I miss his sweet words, his love, his kisses. I miss having him with me. It seems after the Star Wars explosion, we both barely see each other. It's press conferences, movie tapings, premieres, photoshoots, it never ends. No, I don't believe the rumours about him and other woman, he would never do that to me. I went to the premiere of V for Vendetta alone, and I was so worried. I looed at everyone else and realized I was alone, and that talking on the phone just wasn't enough. I missed him so much , I wanted him there with me, when the cameras flashed in my face. My security blanket was gone, and like a small child I wanted it back. I missed him. And it hurt not having him there. Maybe I should take some time off again, and go surprise him, he'd like that.....yes, I think I will.
Natalie Portman
Real Life
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| Topic 110: Sacrifices for Love |
[2.12.06 (Sunday) 6:09pm] |
Greatest sacrifice for love, how bout most recently coming out and telling the whole of my relationship with Hayden..it tore me apart. I wasn't ready to do such, but since someone had to be the bigger person, and it couldn't have possibly been Hayden, given he was away on finishing up something in the studios, it had to be me. I had to sacrifice our privacy for the keepsake of love. It's nothing that I would have preffered to do, given the sitsuation. we were going to do it together. But Sienna couldn't have come forward to put the rumours at ease. NO she had to go right along with them and not say anything! Travesty at it's finest. I \ am reminded if I ever see her, to punch her in her face, which is a unlikely thing of myself to really do. Ever, but this upsets me more then words could say.
I love Hayden, I would give my life for him if it meant he would live. I'm simply that kind of person. Love, is worth the sacrifices you make. It all comes down to one thing. Do you really love the person? If you answer yes, then you'd be willing to give up your life for them.
Natalie Portman/RPF/211
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| Press Conference Called: ATTN all |
[1.28.06 (Saturday) 1:40am] |
[ Miss Portman had called a press conference, after recieving the gossip about her and her beloved boyfriend, and the new of Sienna trying to swindle her way in. She had called a press conference to set the record straight]
It has come to my attention that a publication has been printed stating that Hayden and Sienna Miller have been having affections towards one another. I wish to say that these might be true, but they are in the friendliest of matters. They are close friends, from what Hayden has told me. I have the utmost confidence that he is stating the truth.
[she fidgited in her chair as she cleared her throat and tucked a short strand of hair behind her ear]
I know this, because it is time that I go public with who I have been having a very seriosu relationship with for the past 4 years. I am engaged to be married to my fellow co-star Hayden Christensen, and we have been seeing each other steadily for the last four years. The news of Sienna is something that I am concerned about, because it makes my fiance' look as if there is something going on that isn't, and i pray that Sienna has enough common sense and courtesy to put these rumours to rest as I have. We have planned a small summer wedding, with close friends and family. Thank you all for coming...
[and with that, she had stood and moved, obviously upset by the news, with tears in her eyes. And who did she call? jude, because she needed the comfort of a friend that only he could provide]
((ooc: now granted, yes this is a fake conference, but, it was fun to do, because nat, poor nat, was screaming in my head. I feel for her after reading that news article, which can be found, along with natalie's comments towards it, in her journal. lol))
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| Dream on Sienna... |
[1.28.06 (Saturday) 1:29am] |
This is complete utter..BULLOCKS! Perhaps I've been spending a bit too much time with Jude, or Ewan, but this is a bunch of Lies! JUDE! make it go away...say it isn't so! Keep that tramp of a fiance' away from my fiance! I usually don't use such language, or remarks. But this is unbelievable!
Be prepared for a barrage of lightsaber puns now that Sienna Miller has become chummy with Darth Vader. The London Mirror says the starlet is "seeking consolation" over her reported bust-up with Jude Law "in the arms" of her "Factory Girl" co-star Hayden Christensen, whom she was snapped partying and karaoke-ing with at a recent cast shindig in Louisiana. "Sienna and Hayden aren't doing a very good job of keeping their flirtations a secret," a mole maintains to the paper. "Everybody has been talking about it for a while and after the cast party on Monday they were acting like more than good friends." And how. An onlooker tells Us Weekly that Christensen "had his hands all over her."
I won't tolerate such lies about the love of my life. Sienna, this is a warning to you, I may appear to be sweet and innocent, but if you don't put these rumours to rest, Jude cheating on you is going to be the LEAST of your worries!
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| Fanfic 100 Prompt 001: Beginnings |
[1.16.06 (Monday) 12:05am] |
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Title: And In That Moment
Fandom: Real Life Person
Characters: Natalie Portman
Prompt: 001: Beginnings
Word Count: 809 (give or take)
Rating: Pg-13
Summary: Natalie's inital meeting with Hayden, after returning to the set of Star Wars Episode 2
Author's Notes: Mixture of other characters appear in here such as George Lucas, Hayden, Ewan and a few random names. Comments on the peice are to be made to the main journal. Thank you.
( Back to the beginning we go... )
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| Topic 103: What is the one thing you regret not saying? |
[1.05.06 (Thursday) 2:40pm] |
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One thing that still weighs heavily on my mind, is that I have never said yes to the piblic, when they asked if Hayden and i were together. I wanted yell it from the rooftops, into every microphone that I put to my mouth, but I didn't. I was living a lie, I couldn't imagine how it would go over with anyone. It's not easy saying no, but it's even harder to say yes. The press views things in a scoped view. They love to bend the words of someone to gain one more viewer or sell one more magainze. Out of all the things in life, telling the truth is the hardest thing once can do in their life. I've found that out. Perhaps soon, I'll answer yes to the question that's haunted me for four years, but for now, I shall have to regret not giving a straight answer
Natalie Portman
RL
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| Topic 104: What are you happy about right now? |
[1.05.06 (Thursday) 2:31pm] |
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I'm absolutely thrilled at the progress my donations to Israel have accomplished. They've begun giving food to the inhabitants of the cities and I've been so very proud of everyone reaching out to help others. The country has come a long way, and I'm glad to say I've helped a small bit.
I've also been happier then normal, because the year has been wonderful in terms of box office sales. One third of my salary has gone to Israel and other charities. I've also recently become engaged to my boyfriend of four years now. We're planning a summer wedding or course for certain reasons, the press doesn't know of it, but we plan on announcing it soon. When we're ready of course.
I'm happy, geniunely happy, because I feel, a weight has been lifted from my shoulders, as well as the sense I've given so back to my counry, what was lost by so many, I feel a sense of hope in the world
Natalie Portman
RL
162 words
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| Topic 105: Karma |
[1.05.06 (Thursday) 2:20pm] |
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I believe in life, I believe that what you do is repaid in either good or bad. Karma plays a very large part in my life. I don't want to see it crumble. I try not to do anything that would upset anyone else. I am to be a good girl, granted I do some wrong things in life, no one is prefect. It's impossible to go though life and not make any mistakes. It's rather, impossible. And so life is karma. You make your own, if you do something bad, you can expect it to be returned to you, because you will have your conscience eat you alive. It can be a wonderful thing, or it can kill you. I'd prefer it to give me the good things in life, without Karma, I wouldn't have been able to gain what I have in life, and I'm quite happy with what I have.
Natalie Portman
RL
153 words
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| Topic 106: Random Acts of Kindness |
[1.05.06 (Thursday) 2:09pm] |
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When I visited Israel, I expierenced a act of kindness, so moving, that to this day I remember it clear as yesterday. This was four years ago, before the taping of episode three, I had gone there to escape the pressures of the limelight and to spend somet time along with my boyfriend. And in those streets I witnessed a child, who had been abandoned by the ongoing droughts of food. He was horribly malnourished, and was so weak. He couldn't even stand. And a woman, who had three children with her already, stopped and talked to the boy. It wasn't in English, but I understood what they were daying. She had asked the boy many questions, one of thich was where his parents were. The boys answer was that he had been left by his parents, they left him because they couldn't feed him. And my heart dropped and couldn't swallow, I gripped onto my boyfriends hand. The kindness the woman showed to the boy was something very powerful. She picked up the boy, and held him close, and promised to give him a safe home, food in his mouth, and a roof over his head, but most of all she offered him love.
From that day forward, I never forgot that small act of kindness, and it made me realize why I do charity work when i can. This is why I am who I am today, it's acts of kindness that make people great and keeps kindness in the world. it's acts like these that bring about heros for generations to come.
Natlie Portman
RL
267 words
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| Topic 107: A year in retrospective |
[1.05.06 (Thursday) 2:03pm] |
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As I stood, watching the ball drop from Time's Square, I reminsced about the past year. Things sure were hectic with motives and premiers. My lovelife hasn't been the greatest, but we've managed. We did see each other at the events. I haven't done good and I haven't done bad, I do know that I set out to do something this past year and I've done just that. I've helped a great deal with the thing in my homeland, as well as found love. Those were two things that I wanted to happen. Well, three years ago I found love, but this year he asked me to marry him, and I said yes. Soon I'll be Mrs Natalie Portman...nevermind.
There is nothing I'd change except the fact that I'd should out who I love from the rooftops of every building I could find. I've been keeping it a secret for so long i'm just sick of hiding it. It doesn't feel right. I don't even care what it does to my career, it could cause me to never work again and I wouldn't care. This year has been one of the most memorable of my adult life, and for that, I am eternall grateful.
Natalie Portman
RL
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| Because LJ sucks... |
[12.01.05 (Thursday) 6:08pm] |
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OOC :I haven't been getting any notifs..and frnakly. me need a baby tiny break. so any that have responded to my natalie thread or anything i've done...give me a day..i need to..kill LJ and then bring it back. I swear the stupidity of this thing GAH. so yesh..sorry. I'll get back as soon as ai can. I need to work on a few other things. Like..myself. Beause I my friends, am just a cracked egg right now. Lovely huh?
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| Arriving in London. [locked to Jude, Ewan and Hayden] |
[11.29.05 (Tuesday) 1:54pm] |
-Nat had tossed things into a bag, not caring about what she did throw in there and a smile played across her lips. She was excited. Excited to see Jude, and Ewan, and her Hayden. She had called and booked a private flight to take her to London. It had taken a few hours to arrange, but FINALLY she was in London, and she flipped her cellphone open and dialed Jude up-
Jude, i'm in the airport, I'll be at the bar area. Hope to see you and Ewan soon!!!
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| A Call To Jude [locked to Jude and maybe Hayden if he wants to jump in] |
[11.29.05 (Tuesday) 10:37am] |
-that night, after talking on the computer with Jude very breifly, she had taken to writing a letter to her childhood, then glanced out the window. Sunrise, it was well into morning already over in the European states. She gave a small sigh, going and slipping onto her bed, the cold bed whose sheets hadn't been slept in yet, but then again, she really only slept here, when Hayden was there. She gave a small sigh and let her head rest on the pillow Hayden used, and buried her face into for a few moments. She missed him. This was heartbreaking. She wanted to be with him, but knew, at the time, she couldn't. They weren't ready, were they? She lifted her head and pulled her knees under her, sitting indian style, as she sifted through her address/phone book. She then smiled, finding Jude's number, she picked the phone up, biting her lip as she dialed it, and her back, was to the main door to the master bedroom to the small apartment that her and Hayden shared. She waited for an answer on the other line, and when someone would answer, she'd ask for him, saying it was Nat, and if he answered, a soft voice would come over the phone, but the voice was one full of sadness, and perhaps a tinge of loneliness-
"Jude, hey...it's Nat...
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| Letter to the Future? Or to the Past? |
[11.28.05 (Monday) 10:33pm] |
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- Natalie looked down at the journal open in front of her, she contemplated how to begin this letter, or even if she should. The prompt was a intresting one, something she thought that she could do, but she was finding it hard now, as she stared at the lined paper in front of her and smoothing her fingers over it.-
( and so the scribing begins.. )
-she set the pen down in the spine of the journal and read over what she wrote, slipping her hand under her chin as she smiled, at how truthful her words were. Giving insight, without letting too much be known. She glanced out the window and then checked her clock, it was morning in London, it was time to call Jude-
Muse: Natalie Portman
Fandom: Real Life
Word Count: 656
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| My name is Natalie.. |
[11.28.05 (Monday) 8:41pm] |
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I thought I'd stop by and introduce myself, seeing as I'm new and all to everyone. My name is Natalie Portman, or as most of you probably ping my name to, Padme Amidala. Which is fine, I don't mind being called Padme, it's actually somewhat of who I've become. And I've simply come to accept that, when people think of me, they'll think of Darth Vader's true love. It's romantic, in a weird and twisted way.
I have a loving boyfriend, and most of you think it's my co-star Hayden, and maybe you're right, and maybe you're wrong. I live in Soho, NYC and am taking a MUCH needed break from filming movies....though I do miss my boyfriend, whose shooting one still. The time apart is killing me.
What can I say about myself? I'm a huge Star Wars fan, I'm a Anakin fangirl (I'd take him anyday.) I love Harry Potter, and some of those men in Quiditch could steal my heart away through their words. Well, I don't have many friends, but I'm willing to make some. Absolutely. So, won't you be my friend?
ooc This is my natalie. She's up for anything rpwise (dont know who would rp with her sides hayden lol), and she'll be answering the prompts and doing her own lil things here and there. And yah lol. Someone be nice to her lol
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